Where do I begin? My 2nd semester has finally got a breath of fresh air. While the students drown in the furry of catching up with it. I'm definitely not left out in this race. Our lecturers were pretty okay so far. the Major science subjects were at its first few chapters, where they actually touch base with the things we learnt in our high school years. Thank God for that.
In this sem, our intake had to 'continue' with Health Sciences and 'Malaysian Studies'. Well, I'd say it's more of a 'retake'. cus we actually already did in the previous short sem. Anywho, We had to bid 'adieu' to some of our classmates and that was pretty ..um. hard for some of us. but Life moves on..
Now, the Lecture theather would be filled to the brim and we had to squeeze right at the back. Imagine a class of nearly 200+ students, if not more. Yea. So I kinda felt like an orphan in that class. I refuse to elaborate. :P
So our lecturer said something today and it just made me sick, sad, and disturbed in a way. And recalling that, I guess i decided to post something about it. My mood swing is at full oscillation to be honest today. Lack of sleep actually does that to people. Nyeh.
Our lecturer told us about a girl in our Uni. who attempted to take her life after some apparent 'love issues'. It's just sad how people can even begin to think of that. They put their life so nonchalantly at par or equal to the person who did them wrong.
And that's another reason why one shouldn't get too attached to someone, once you do. You're in bondage forever. You're a slave to their love and only their 'LOVE' can save you from captive.
As cheesy as it sounds, Things like these happen.
Once you lose someone, regardless the reasons, just know that, it's not the end of the world. You still have a long road ahead of you.
If this person doesn't see things the way you see it or leaves you for someone else or plays you out in his game where he always wins. By all means, you deserve someone who can change all that girlfriend. Why wait and lament on people who treats you as trash? or second best? There is someone out there willing to do so much more and plaster that smile back where it's suppose to belong. So why bother going out of the way to hurt yourself ? and not to mention end your life? Man. If people, esp girls could just see how much they are worth.
And moving on may seem like the toughest thing to do. Well, Think about it this way, I bet in your life you have dealt with deaths of people closest to you or have done terribly bad in an exam or the worst thing that could happen to you. Think about that for a minute. and then think about how you've stuck through all that jazz til you got to where you are now. Amazing isn't it? so what makes that little ache in your heart hurt so bad that you can't let go of it?
Follow your heart, But take your brain with you
We tend to follow our heart more in this case. That's why we have both. A heart to fall in love, to feel, to be emotional, to ache. and a brain which controls all the important functions in your body and not to mention the smart part that actually makes sense and does not act on impulse. The wrinkly thing that is the size of both our fists put together. That lil thing, packs a punch. So, obviously it's there for a reason, not an ornament you put just to fill the spaces in your skull. It's there to direct you. In a way. So process all that hurt, heartaches, rejections, betrayals all in that brain of yours, Cus it doesn't blow. unless, well if you were to randomly have a random haemorrhage . *touchwood.
All in all, You'll move on. From all that hurt, pain and regret. but just know that God will never give you something that you can't handle. Every single bit of challenge, bump and obstacle is put there in your life for a reason. cus with those lil lessons in your life. you'll learn, grow, and mature into a stronger individual who pushes on no matter the circumstances.
And oh do yourself a favour, Don't over-think on the littlest things. You'll worry yourself for no reason. And that's stupid.
Instead, try to better yourself and work on yourself and by that I don't mean change who you are, but just sit back and remember who you are as a person and your beliefs and what makes you happy. It's not all about Love and relationships you know. Your friends and family are there for a reason. :')
And someday, She will get a hang of the game you play and then the game's on you.
It will hurt, No one said it wouldn't. But, It will heal in time.
Give time, time.
With Love.
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